I can't stop thinking about it,
Every single moment of every single day.
I'm forever stuck in my own mind,
And that's the price I must pay.

I think of everything I do,
I think of my every action.
The moves that I make,
And every reaction.

I know I'm not happy,
But I fake it to fit in.
I pretend I'm fine,
Whilst sanity is wearing thin.

A look in the mirror,
Shows a person I'm not.
A person I don't know,
A person I forgot.

I disappoint him,
He thinks I am mad.
He thinks I am strange,
And he thinks I am mad.

I try to make him see,
The person I want to be.
I want so dearly,
To be the best version of me.

I've forgotten who I am,
And the language that I speak.
Happy memories fading,
It's left me feeling weak.

I talk to my friends,
pretending that I'm fine.
Constantly watching myself
Scared of crossing out of line.

Isolation from the world,
I'm trapped in my head.
Trapped in a prison,
Leaves me feeling dead.

This poem is my thoughts,
the thoughts that no one knows.
This is just my feelings,
My mind and my woes.